

After that I couldn’t go more than three days without thinking about the FBI sting that happened in ’98.” But when something hits a core trauma – I actually got really retriggered. I was welcomed and accepted at LSE, by my professors and classmates.

“It’s such a shame, because 99.9% of my experiences in England were positive, and she was an anomaly. “Oh, she’d had too much to drink,” Lewinsky replies. “Why did that woman in London say that to you?” I ask her. We’ll talk for two hours, after which there’s only time for a quick teacake before she hurries to the airport to give a talk in Phoenix, Arizona, and spend the weekend with her father. She just flew in from India and hasn’t had breakfast yet. “I’m hyper-aware of how other people may be perceiving me,” she says. Lewinsky would have noticed the stares and would have clammed up a little. If we hadn’t done it, passersby would probably have stared. We had to pay extra for the table to be curtained off. Lewinsky is telling me this story at a table in a quiet corner of a West Hollywood hotel. “But she suddenly said she knew really high-powered people,” Lewinsky says, “and I shouldn’t have come to London because I wasn’t wanted there.” On her first weekend, she went drinking with a woman she thought might become a friend. Lewinsky had moved from New York a few days earlier to take a master’s in social psychology at the London School of Economics. O ne night in London in 2005, a woman said a surprisingly eerie thing to Monica Lewinsky.
